Should I?

Sitting here in the living room on my ohh so too comfortable sofa with my legs up rubbing my belly. 35 weeks prego w/baby #3. Baby is very active and has been for the past 3 months. We're having a SURPRISE baby and I'm so EXCITED! My family on the other hand just wants me to find out already..lol As I'm sitting here rubbing my tummy I'm thinking of the day I give birth and weather or not I should get an epi. I've had my first 2 without and I had good and bad experience with them. But the truth is I think I'm more scared of the epi then I am childbirth. Crazy right?! Its just in my head I seem to always picture the worst case scenario like I'd be that 1 out of 1000 to have something go super wrong. But on the other had I'd like to have a pain free delivery because Seila was not the business..lol worth it but I'd love to experience an epi..lol Of course my husband thinks I'm some Amazon Princess and that I can handle anything and wants me to not have an epi..lol Ummm I'll be the one to decide. Reading all the pros and cons of having an epidural doesn't make it any easier either. I'm sure when the time comes I'll know. Just a few more weeks to go before we meet our lil Princess or Prince and I couldn't be any more excited!